Inner strength. Mental conditioning. Grit. The powerful life force inside all of us that we can develop. It is our hidden jewel, and it’s up to us to DIG FOR IT.

Losing my girl Rosie was one of the worst experiences I have ever encountered. Both stressful and extremely traumatic, it shook my world harder than any other experience in my life so far. I poured my love into Rosie, and when she died in my arms I suddenly felt like I was pouring into nothing. Up to the very end giving her CPR in the car on the way to ER I loved that girl as hard and as much as I could. I felt totally empty when her body laid lifeless upon me. I don’t ever expect to be over her death. The pain that it inflicted upon me left a mark on my heart that will never fade. BUT there is hope in my heart.

12Overwhelming circumstances present a fork in the road. We can stay on our same path, or we can take scary new steps that challenge our person and cultivate our inner strength. We can wallow in our sadness or we can let life move on and see it differently.  After a few days of mourning my girl, I felt a tiny bloom of strength come back into my heart. I thought of all the trials I’ve endured in my past that prepared me for this horrible loss. The many “hits” I’ve taken gave me the strength gave me the power to face life with a positive attitude once again. I see them now as the stepping stones from the dark world of loss and suffering toward the light of the future.

This might surprise you, but people with inner strength aren’t afraid to ask for support! When tough times hit you, ask for help. Ask those you love to talk things through with you. Cry with them and thank them for their wonderful human empathy. Talking through traumatic events is not easy and may feel like pouring salt into a wound. But do it! Cry your eyes out if you need to and each time less tears will fall. In the end the tears will help you heal. Having inner strength means not caring if you cry or show sadness. It doesn’t have anything to do with hiding from or suppressing emotions. It has everything to do with letting them go, learning from them, embracing them.  It means not caring if something you are feeling seems “crazy” or if you look “stupid” or “weird”. It is the letting go of all judgement on yourself that begins the healing process.

It’s a matter of time before each of us has a “shaker”. Realize that all of the little buggers, what I like to call the “hits” in life are preparing you. They are making you stronger if you grow from them. Count on friends. Be consistent with your workouts because they build your grit. You are only human, allow yourself the opportunity to grow from each obstacle you face.

Thank you all again for being so empathetic for the loss of my girl. You each play a critical role in my healing process.  I am so very grateful and fortunate.

Life is short…Carpe Diem!  🙂 Coach M


Gumsaba Outdoor Fitness Class schedule Thursday 4/10/14

5:30AM Sunrise Danville Womens only class – Coach Briana – Cardio Strength HIIT

5:30AM Sunrise Danville Mens only class – Coach Allen

6AM Sunup Walnut Creek Co-Ed class – Coach Jentry – Cut Up Strong!

9AM Sunshine Walnut Creek Womens only class – Coach Briana – Cardio Strength HIIT

10:30 Sunshine Walnut Creek Co-Ed Yoga – Coach Michelle